"Sometimes when I've got a lot on my mind, it just helps to go 'Aaaaaaaa!!'"

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 01:22:19 GMT

I just got done doing my workout and had to post something.
I know i need to get a shower, but I have to let the shower run anyway to get to the right temp...stupid dorm showers.

anyway...

I feel sooooo good right now. Almost like I'm clean. Not the outside obviously, I sweated like a pig, but inside. i feel like I'm energized and just clean, like the fat is getting rinsed out.

I feel like this everytime i work out, but ialways forget to post it. I think it is good to write down somewhere how you feel after a work out.

now to the shower!

I am the one named Sailor Moon

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 18:11:16 GMT

I want to be sailor moon soooooooooo bad. lol Maybe i've i'm close to my goal weight I will wear my, or a sailor moon costume to the anime convention in chicago.

Things are going well, but I thought I'd let my friends on this journal know that my man journal is under qualitybait.

you can read most of my thingys on there.

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 20:26:42 GMT

I'm back at school, and what better way to start the school year then by making some lifestyle changes. That's right, I have offically changed to diet pop. I know I'm a little disappointed in myself. lol.

Basically, I called my doctor a coupls days ago about blood work and physical i had done at the end of July. He told me a lot of what I already know, like that my cholesterol was high, but not extremely, but i needed to work on my trigylcerides.
"Do you drink pop?"
"not much anymore, i cut back from almost all then time to only 2 cans a day"
"well you need to stop completly, or switch to diet...now this is what i would be worried about if I was your father."

Excuse me? Baking powder? what the hell does my dad have to do with any of this. I'm 21 years old, I see the doctor by myself. oh and then he says...
"Did you know you had a bladder infection?"
"uh, no."
"Well according to the test you do."

i'm thinking, according to the test I had on 3WEEKS AGO AND YOUR DUMB ASS OFFICE NEVER CALLED!!!

not that i felt anything, i didn't I never had any symptoms.

so after i got off the phone i cried alot about it. My dad and sister said diet pop wasn't that bad, and that I could do it, but they wouldn't force me. To tell you the truth i think my fam was as surprised as me when i got off the phone.

So that's the big drama. Been in the dorm since thursday. so woot for that.
I think the heat is having me sweat off the pounds.

one thing I want to work on this year is my body image. I have pretty good self -esteem, but i want to feel pretty. I don't always so that is one of my goals.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 14:45:30 GMT

Sorry I haven't updated lately. It's been a little crazy around here. My dad had a lump removed from his tongue (not cancer) and my sister had tonsil and sinus surgery. two days in a row. Dad first, then sister. Then the computer started to act dumb, and I had to run a restore disk and talk on the phone with multiple tech help people. Well i'm still working out bugs but at least I'm online.

I'm proud to say that with all this going on, I'm stil at 209lbs. and I've been working out and eating as well as anyone can when trying to feed two people who can only have soft foods. There are crazy amounts of rice, couscous, mac and cheese, and pudding in the house. i'm glad i haven't caved in to much. Donuts were my weak point. lol.

Still working out. Love the Extreme Makeover workout dvd. I'm glad mom is letting me use take it to school with me.

I go to the Doctors on thursday for a check. I know he is going to say i'm overweight. We've had the discussion before, but i'm going to keep doing what I'm doing. And making myself happy is the key.

Yeah school's around the corner. i'm really going to need the motivation when I get back there. I hope you guys can help!

think that's all for now so later taters!

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 02:46:50 GMT

woot, even though i was sick and couldn't work out, I lost 5lbs!!! now i just have to try to not gain it back lol.

got the breath easy tea and working to three cups a day. right now i'm at 2, cuz i've never been a fan of hot tea, so i'm trying to get used to it.

tomorrow is my birthday. I get my first legal drink. woot woot. more update tomorrow i have the 7am shift in the morning.

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 18:01:25 GMT

sorry for no update lately, i've been working non-stop and have work again tonite. so this is a quick hey...

see ya

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 20:24:12 GMT

ever feel like you are pressured into a situation or a feeling or whatever. My Parents, speciafically my dad, still believes that someday out there somewhere i will get back with my ex-boyfriend, who i am friends with now, and was friends with before we ever went out. all i hear from my dad is, "oh he is a really nice guy, i like him a lot." or "this girl isn't the girl for him it is never going to work." he even out right asked me if i would go back out with him if he asked me again. I told him i didn't know what God had instore for me. If it is meant to be then it will. But i'm really hurt because i felt verty sufficated in that relationship. like for a while it was nice, but then it became like i love you so much, you are mine you know. i mean he didn't play mind games with me or controlled me, but it was the way he would hold me at the coffee shop with my friends around, both hands on either shoulder really tight and it just felt like i couldn't breath anymore. Another big thing was, he didn't believe in God, and that was a big issue with me. It's just a values thing, i think the person i marry should have that in common. I think most people agree that the person you date/marry should have relatively the same belief system, no matter what it is. it is hard otherwise.

so though i'm happy being just friends, dad is not so much. It has meant that while my friends has now gone on to another girl, i'm stuck here in limbo.

did this make any sense?

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 16:19:00 GMT

yesterday was an interesting day. I was working around the house, deposited my two checks from sub-teaching and my last check from school. Then I got a call to come into work at Walgreens. It was my first day on my own after training. Things went very well, expect that i got my drawer stuck own my first customer. it sucked really bad. lol but the rest of the nite was good.

ate fairly well yesterday, today will be interesting since i didn't eat breakfast til 10 something because i slept in.

oh well.

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Watch Phantom of the opera the other nite. All i know is that The count sucks monkey butt and Phantom is hot. oh yeah!

Tue, 31 May 2005 00:05:21 GMT

i forgot it was weigh in today!!!

Mon, 30 May 2005 14:53:30 GMT

yay ticker..lol

opening comments

Sun, 29 May 2005 23:40:14 GMT

so this is my change, i hope it is a good one. I need some venting room away from my other journal. I hope this is it.

I have survived my training at walgreens. I am now offically on my own at the register. I'm still battling the bags, but I will win the battle, it is envitable.

Sometimes I feel belittled by my sister. I love her let me say that right now, and what I'm feeling right now is fleeting and in an hour will probably be gone. I feel like to her my probelms are stupid. I try to remind myself not to vent to her to often, because she gets sick of it. I understand that venting over and over again and dwelling on it isn't good. But I feel better when I talk. I feel like it makes the pain a little less everytime.

she just flat out said, "You know, there comes a point when venting won't help." or she will roll her eyes and sarcastically say, "Ya I know." So i know to stop, and I usually shut off from ther world for a while.

I've got an Idea for a story to write, Now, I just have to write it.

wish me luck.